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    Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
    6:02 pm
    i feel like everything totally just went in to the right perspective.
    Sunday, March 27th, 2005
    11:51 pm
    wow i just realized how bad you manipulated me!
    Monday, January 24th, 2005
    11:06 pm
    Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall
    You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
    You watched my team win
    You watched my team lose
    Watched when my bicycle went down again
    And when I was weak, unable to speak
    Still I could call You by name
    And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
    Come if You can
    You said, I Am

    Only sixteen, life is so mean
    What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
    You saw my mistakes
    And watched my heart break
    Heard when I swore I'd never love again
    And when I was weak, unable to speak
    Still I could call You by name
    And I said Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
    Be my best friend
    And you said, I Am

    You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
    I said forever to what lies ahead
    Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
    Too much it might seem when it is 2am
    And when I am weak, unable to speak
    Still I will call You by name
    Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
    Hold onto my hand
    You say, I Am

    The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
    So we find a foothold that's familiar
    And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

    When life had begun, I was woven and spun
    You let the angels dance around the throne
    And who can say when, but they'll dance again
    When I am free and finally headed home
    I will be weak, unable to speak
    Still I will call You by name
    Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
    Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
    Lord and King, Beginning and the End

    I Am
    Yes, I Am
    Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
    6:33 pm
    we dont talk about
    the little things that we do without
    Friday, September 10th, 2004
    2:09 pm
    I LOVE MY LIFE.
    AND ALL THE THINGS THAT ARE WRONG WITH IT.
    FO REAL.
    Monday, August 2nd, 2004
    5:36 pm
    i had fun :)
    Thursday, July 15th, 2004
    3:21 am
    well i saw u tonight and it was nothing. i think i took you off ur pedastel. yes i was excited and felt a lil weird at first but whatever. i have my own life now. something that is mine. not ours. or yours. my life isnt you. its me. its my job. my intersts. my friends. my wants. my needs. my mistakes. my failures. my successes, my trials. my tribulations. my face. my brain. my thoughts. my experiences. most of which dont include or involve you. yah we have a past. but the past is the past cuz it didnt last.
    Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
    11:04 pm
    i got so mad and then i realized you were right all along.
    Sunday, May 30th, 2004
    1:14 pm
    i
    wish
    Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
    12:30 am
    MY LIFE IS A BIG GOOD VS EVIL

    I WANT THE GOOD TO WIN!
    Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
    11:00 am
    yah so i lost 3 pounds and now im stuck on this icky number.
    what do i need to do?
    start throwing everything up?

    i tried and im a pretty sucky bulimic! lol!!

    GRRRRRRRRRRR. cmon 5 more pounds!
    Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
    4:22 pm
    when you'd hold my hand, you'd be holding my heart
    Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
    12:26 am
    IM JUST SO SICK OF CRYING.
    i just want to go in my bed and never get out.
    Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
    12:09 am
    who knew
    at this party that I
    would walk in and I'd see you.
    I guess now
    we could just get drunk
    yeah, that could be our excuse
    you could slip
    from out of nowhere
    i could be there to catch your fall
    we could laugh
    at ourselves
    and the writing that's on the wall

    it's a narrow margin
    just room enough for regret
    in the inch and a half between
    hey, how ya been?
    and
    can I kiss you yet?
    so we talk, like
    nervous neighbors over a tall fence
    true love, but for the lack of providence

    but I just got one more
    thing to tell you

    'cuz words are vitamins
    and life is short
    and I know when we get up
    to the front office
    We're gonna have to fill out
    a full report
    and the first question will be
    what were you thinking?
    and the next question will be
    what did you say?
    then they're gonna check to see
    if the answers to one and two
    matched up much
    along the way

    in the interest of poetry
    and the cowboy movie
    that's you and me
    I'm back on the horse now
    and I am riding
    I am striding so effortlessly
    what I mean is
    it's late
    much to late for us
    and I'm fixing to go home
    with just my conscious
    and a bitter sense of irony
    as my chaperone

    true love, but for the lack of providence.
    Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
    2:10 pm
    im so fickle and i dont know what i want
    and i should stop hurting myself and other people trying to figure it out.
    Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
    4:20 pm
    plz stop calling me.

    please please please.
    ughhhhhhhhh


    well im going to stop eating again.
    well stop eating excess.
    tomorrow is the first day of lent.
    which means fasting.
    so i can cleanse out my body.
    and then start fresh.
    how wonderful. :)

    i really need to study.
    i need to get motivated for school!!

    GRRRRRRRRRR.
    Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
    4:30 pm
    im so good at playing it off like i dont care.

    maybe i should stop playing.


    or should i stop caring?
    Friday, January 30th, 2004
    8:41 pm
    you left footprints in my heart
    and i will follow them back to you.
    Saturday, January 10th, 2004
    2:45 am
    omg i feel like i could die,
    ewwwww i feel so sick and in pain.
    wow. i dont know whats wrong with me.
    i could curl over and die. just die.
    tongiht was fuckin intersting.
    more later when i feel better.
    Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
    3:21 am
    so awake.
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